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Category: Writing and Poetry
'Nothing More'

This feeling to strong to withhold
although to weak to show
Hidden beneath this cynical perspective
is a past that could not be prevented
Can't help but recall those memories I loathe
But with you by my side
an assurance takes hold
You're above all expectations
beyond all boundaries
that's why it makes you
so hard to believe
Afraid to fall again
to break down and cry again
But with you in the end
all we'll ever be is
friends.

'An Apology'

'If an apology could express
the pain I feel inside
from jumping to conclusions
from my heart I cannot hide.

The past has raped my mind
and this you can be sure
the things I said tonight
were more than immature.

I'm sorry that my judgment
was affected in such a way
that now I may have lost
what might have been ok.

If there is still a spark
of fire left within
do not let it die
or forsake what might have been.

The chaos I have wrought
cannot be undone
But maybe not all is lost
we have only just begun.

Open up your eyes
and blend into my soul
maybe it will make
this half of me a whole.'

'Lonely'

From within an empty soul
I emerge from this damaged hole
I live within a flame of the past
Searching for a love that'll last
I open up to those who I trust
Although I find they were
Powered by lust
Possessed and cursed
By the things I inspire
But within a world of the corrupt
None can feed the fire.

'Not Here'

I find myself lost
in an illusion of
someone I once knew.
Now that illusion has
faded into darkness
and I can't find you.
I wonder what has
befallen the truth
I found within
Why it's not the same
as its always been.

These questions floated
aimlessly into the air,
then I finally realized
you aren't even there.

Gone'

You're still here
Even though every trace
of you has vanished
I still feel you
as my cheeks tickle
with tears
Your laugh still lingers
throughout the fickle breeze
Your eyes still piercing every
ache I fill with need.

'Unobtainable'

The lethal temptation
of your green eyes
slipping deeper into
forlorn ruins of denial.
The permanent gaze
you hold, but not for me
keeps away my
euphoria.
Did I wait too long
to realize my mistake?
Did I lose you because
I didn't have the strength?
Were you gone
before I came along?
Will I know the feeling
of true love when it comes?
The frustration I have
and keep to myself
Will I break down?
Or will I stand my ground?

'Damaged'

I'm blind in the dark
Crippled at your feet
Lying on the ground
With rain on my cheeks

I'm betrayed by the dark
Hidden away by a sheet
Shaken by the marks
With tears on my cheeks

I'm lonely in the dark
With a stranger I did meet
I'm unmoving in the dark
With blood on my cheeks